Blowing Hot & Cold

Started off the semester like this

The very demanding 2 year old toddler

It’s that time of the middle semester, which sadly means the biggest test in our student life. I can’t remember ever not struggling through the middle of each semester. I think I’m getting better though, I try not to leave things too last minute. As of now, I’m taking a break to release all that frustration of ‘writer’s block’, when I totally am too dry to think of any academically coherent sentences that make sense. I swear, we go through our semesters vomiting and choking on making words sound smart. It’s just temporary genius though, because we never remember the smart ass theories we so astoundingly could come up with. So this week, PR and Media Law will break our backs. Media Law being the scariest subject, why, because it is law and we are not familiar with it. I don’t think media students were ever made to famish for law.

Next week, a wave of NDPW newspaper layout, and CIE (Ethics) which are much better still, than this week’s ungodly penance. Also not to mention, Moral Education video presentation. All I can say is I am so ready to reach the end of the semester, but strangely, I want to do my very best and remember every moment of the sweat and tears. This is already my final year.

Guess I won’t be around blogging much in this case…

The lady's preoccupation

Moving on, as I move around my room and rummage through my stuff, it’s so obvious that I’ve reached that time of the year where my stuff are running out, which means I gotta go shopping to restock. This is very disturbing as my bank account will not allow it. My make-up, toiletries, and their little components are about to end their short lives. I wonder if I should work, but how can I, the assignments are eating up my days. This is when I turn to God, order the cheapest food, and recount the times when I had money and be grateful for those money spending times I did have. Always when life isn’t so perfect we try to recall how it used to be quite perfect once. I dare not start a list of items to buy. But eventually that day will come, and hopefully, the cheque will be in my lap by then. Fingers crossed…

Uproot

I remember, during my second semester, a lecturer asked the whole class if anyone was seriously considering migrating, and my hand remained down. I thought that Malaysia was enough for me, but now I seriously see that Malaysia is not where I want my future to be. Once I tire of a place and seen enough, had enough of it, I just want to find a newer, better place to start over again. So I’m just saying, I’ve reached a point in life where migrating is not just an option, but it is a priority. I’m still not about to reveal any details, just some mind boggling info for you ;) Or perhaps ask me outright, I prefer that over some back-talking, if you please.

Time-Out

What else is new? Oh yes, I’ve recently acquired a beautiful journal book to jot down stuff to ramble, mostly random and direct. I used to love going through the whole chronology of my days especially high school years, but I lost it as I grew up. Things changed, but I realized, that’s the best thing I can do for myself, which I’m not ready to let go off. I may not write as detailed as I would have, but I write down things which are meaningful, memories, feelings, and things I wish to remember for as long as I can.

Best of friends once more

The world is already noisy; I do not want to forget that little voice I have within myself.

The Unattainable

Somehow, I’ve recently had this attraction towards second hand bookshops, towards the used books which people have ravished, and this gave a sort of charm to them. They have this air of ‘cast-offs’, which makes me want to pick them up and take them home, I can’t resist those yellowing pages and creased front covers, and dog ears especially. Okay, maybe it’s because I’ve not been able to afford brand new books, but still, I found something :)

So it’s Halloween end of the month, and if the party does materialize, it will be my first Halloween party in all of my twenty two years. I’m excited, still figuring out what I should go as!

The Surprise

And now the part you’ve all been waiting for. Yes, I’ve met a boy whom I’ve finally let into my life. We’ve been getting to know each other over the year, and already experienced a lot of new things together. I’m really happy to have him; he marks the turning point of my life in many ways. And I am looking forward to taking on the world with him. His name is Gavin :) 

I love when his eyes turn green

The Comeback

I know some of you are wondering why my blog is rarely updated. Well here goes. In my life, as for everyone else’s out there, I divide it into the public, private, and secret life. The public is what you see, the private is what I keep and share with some people, the secret is living a life I do not wish for any intrusions. The secret life is the most exciting, because I get to keep things to myself, you know, like how we always hide away our treasures, been like that since the introduction of toys. You know how it goes ;)