Today as I waited for the bus and ate a bun which cost RM1.40, I realized that if I had more money, I’d be taking back a bag of food and maybe the very tempting bubble tea. So, if I had more money, I’d be fatter =/. Then its good after all that I don’t have too much money coz I’d end up spending more on food, my one greatest love in my whole life! That is the one time I was thankful I’m not rich :D
I found an old photo from last semester during filming at my house
Its been a crazy week! I slept too little, and finally followed the whole schedule for uni since last week Dewi was sick and my timetable was all haywire. And it really is about time I pick myself up in regards to classes and assignments. Boo L
So I saw this quote on Tumblr, which I am now using and is a lot of fun. It’s like, unlimited access to the world’s best stuff: pictures and quotes, simple and in a jiffy. I was a bit crazy about it at the beginning, and now I’m getting a little lazy. I think my life is too full for me this week to sit and browse around to pass the time. Anyway, this quote brought to mind how Grief is mostly a portion of our feelings, and some people literally go mental with grief. And I’m too young to say I’ve grieved, and although I did grief for one year after my dad passed away, I still think there will be grieves more enormous than my dad passing away.
After moving on from that one year, I discovered life is something that still takes me on a journey which grief can’t do. Maybe my dad dying has become a part of me that I don’t feel the grief that much anymore. Sometimes when I see or hear how people cope with their sorrows, I think that that’s not all there is to pain. It’s going to get worse. But still, I know they have to pass that level of sorrow in order to go to a higher one.
To me, my mum is someone so strong to be able to handle my dad’s death. I always thought that, and I admired her for that. Although sometimes I get angry at her, and I think she didn’t do enough for us, but what more can a single person do when she feels crippled without her partner to go through life like they used to? I love her in a way which is worn, inexplicable and reserved. Finally, she’s releasing me out to life, slowly and gently. I’m so happy for her now, she’s happier, she sleeps more, and best of all, asks me to email her J
My Mum & I before flying back to KL
I might be getting a watch next week. I’ve never really bought myself a watch, because they’re too expensive! Once, my dad bought me 11 watches, but they all gave out coz he bought them in bulk from Petaling Street! Of course they were lovely, all the different colours with different prints, but they weren’t made to last. I only had two genuine watches in my entire life, the first was a Garfield watch from Singapore when I was a tiny girl, and the second was Swatch when I was 13. It was white and obviously got dirty and stained after a few months. Michelle is going to show me a gold watch which she said would suit my tan, and isn’t like a few hundreds! It’s secondhand but most important, it’s genuine. So I can’t wait for that!
This week was a very special week, because it was Dewi’s birthday! She said she wanted a low key one, but I secretly planned a surprise for her anyway. I really wanted her to be happy and on celebration mode. Boon and I brought her to old campus, because she suggested to eat lunch there, while our other friends came in two different cars later. We only had two hours! The two groups were caught up with meetings at Lakeside and had to wait for each other to be able to surprise Dewi together, so Boon and I had to stall time by keeping Dewi talking far after we’d finished eating. Boon had to order another dish!
Finally, after the group bought the cake and gathered, the plan was in motion. As Dewi talked, Boon and I sneaked glances behind her at our friends slowly sneaking behind her shielding the cake from the wind. Some of them were trying to make us laugh and we both tried to keep poker face. As they were coming nearer, they started to sing Happy Birthday and she turned around mid sentence and was so speechless. She looked back at the smiling faces of Boon and I, and we started clapping hands and she started tearing up. I was in tears at the end of the song, coz I cry too damn easily too. I was so happy for her, and I myself was so touched by the whole thing. Happy Birthday dearest! Every Birthday should be memorable!
Surprise!!
Dewi & I
The surprise team! thanks for making it happen!!
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