Pause; PLAY

It’s a week since I’ve come back to KL. I never thought I’d ever look forward to coming back so much. Many sad things have happened over the holidays, but that’s the way of life, isn’t it?

I come back, and I come alone. But not quite lonely. I come back with so much plans, so many goals, filled with every desire to change my life. So many people around me, I never knew I had them when I needed them the most, and they come just like angels from the sky.

So how can I be lonely? They do so much for me, I have to return them a favour. By being myself, searching my heart, putting words into action.

People make mistakes all the time. I did them, but they’re all behind me now.

I just wanna thank all of you out there for putting my heart back in place, and pulling me back to the ground. You guys make me feel loved, worthy, and strong.

All of you whom I care for, thank you for being there to see me at my weakest, for letting me guide myself under your eyes, and giving yourself as examples.

For all the good times I had with you guys, which turned out as ugly messes, thank you for letting me collapse and taking me out of my comfort zone.

For every phone call in the middle of the night, text messages when I least expect, and long conversations on MSN, you all inspire me and give a little boost each time. It kills each lonely night.

I wish I can name each of you, but you know who you are, and let’s keep it in our hearts. I love all of you, and thank you forever.

Your time, shoulders, and space in the heart for me led me to understand myself and all my mistakes.

Thank you for the books, the chips, the sleepovers, the outings, the long talks, the hugs.

I’m on my way to being a better person, and I’ll start it with a smile.