As the holiday sinks in, you think: hey, it does get routine and boring even more.
Been planning to apply for a part time job, but don't know if circumstances will allow. My mum wants me to help her out when she's out at work, and she only finishes at 4pm, so a day time job is out of the question.
Why does everything always have to depend on others? If i go ahead and do my thing is it selfish? I want to do an internship. But perhaps only next year. When my brother is back, and at least there's someone at home.
What i'm afraid of is: sinking into the holiday completely, and will end up with me all lazy and unkempt. Will end up doing nothing, lying around luxuriously allowing the time to slip through my fingers, even a good book can do this to me.
That's why i need to keep active.
And staying home doesn't help. Life is too slow, comfortable, peaceful. That i can't hear myself think, and my brain isn't functioning how it should.
I try to keep myself busy by doing housework and cooking. Being a housewife is out a the question in the future.
I don't see myself on that road. I need to get out!
Probably the most boring post ever. Will write more interesting ones next.
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