Wasted

Unbelieveable. My presentation for POB was postponed again. Should i be glad or angry? To be honest, i'm glad because i'm spared more time to prepare for it. I absolutely loathe presentations because i feel like an ant when everyone is staring at me and hanging on to my every word. It's a fear, and i'm working hard at getting rid of it. Its just that i tend to forget things that i'm supposed to say when a spotlight is on me. Totally no drama queen material. Really. I'm made for one-man communication, i swear. Gotta work on that.


I say wasted because i've not even touched my advertising assignment! Gah! I'm not pleased with myself, because it is due tomorrow. What happened to No More Last Minute Assignments? Will be sleepless in advertising tonight. I've spent nearly most of the week on that POB presentation slides, totally slaving for it, and most of the time i wasted because i keep changing and re-changing all the slide layouts. Did not stick to any of them in the finishing results. Wasted because if i had known there would be no presentation, i would have worked on the advertising assignment! God loves toying with my life, Great job, God. You know i'm no puppet, right? There's such a thing as last minute at-all-costs work, coffee, and alarm clocks to keep me awake or at least sleep less. 


Today, i want to thank number one, Joey for bringing me breakfast: Tuna & butter toast. Second, i want to thank my new formal black shoes for not hurting one bit as i traveled from college back to home. I admit, i had doubts because they were tight and had a bit of heel, but amazing, i didn't want to take them off once i stepped into the park. 
Third, i want to thank people (or men in general) for not trying to get my attention by honking loudly or calling out from their car windows when they pass me as i waited by the highway for the bus. Or the ogling. I guess i want to thank them because i was wearing a formal skirt that was kind of body hugging, with a long slit on each side up to the lower half of my thighs. Guess i was just uncomfortable. Guess i was lucky coz they were all at work, those dirty itchy men. 
I want to thank Edgar for being so patient with me these few days... i can get very difficult when i'm stressed or cold. For enduring all my silent treatment and making you feel helpless... thank you. I'm still waiting for myself to come back.


There are so many things that i want to try, and soon i'll be compiling a list that i must achieve once i'm freed from any bondages so plaguing me right now. For starters, will try watching a movie alone in the cinema. By the end of this year, if i have the money, i'm gonna get myself inked. Realistic goals for now. 

"Above: I know my blog lacks photos, so i dug out this one. I like it very much for some reason. Maybe its the whole serenity radiating from the elements. LOL this is so IDM. Anyway, thats part of the park near my house, and that's my cousin and her friend. They are looking at Maisy at the edge of the pond way below."

Would like to share a song that means alot to me at this moment. I heard it in Joey's car on the way back from college. It's from the Disney movie Anastasia, At The Beginning by Donna Lewis & Richard Marx. classic through and through ;) the chorus part:

And life is a road that I want to keep going
Love is a river, I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I've also inserted the song into my brand new song playlist ;)
At the moment though, this whole day will be devoted to my last assignment of the first half semester. Cheers to you guys who have that one more to go, and Happy Holidays.